“Everyone who terrifies you is sixty-five percent water.
And everyone you love is made of stardust, and I know sometimes you cannot even breathe deeply, and the night sky is no home,
and you have cried yourself to sleep enough times that you are down to your last two percent, but
nothing is infinite,
not even loss.
You are made of the sea and the stars, and one day
you are going to find yourself again.”
– Finn Butler
My dad always warned me about
the bad men who could
slip drugs into my treats
but never about the ones
slip into my veins.
It’s March first and
my Halloween Candy is
most likely stale
the taste of you
on my lips is
definitely stale as well
the crash from
Somedays I ask myself what I’m doing.
Somedays I know what I’m doing.
Sometimes I ask myself if I’ll ever be healthy enough.
Sometimes I ask myself if I’ll ever be sick enough.
Some nights I wish it never happened.
Some nights I worry about what would have happened if it didn’t.
Some nights I wish that this all would end.
Some nights I listen to FUN.
All nights I am met with the resounding sound of my conscious reminding me that I am unequivocally me. And that’s never going to change.
“People who do not love themselves can adore others, because adoration is making someone else big and ourselves small. They can desire others, because desire comes out of a sense of inner incompleteness, which demands to be filled. But they can not love others, because love is an affirmation of the living growing being in all of us. If you don’t have it, you can’t give it.”
– Andrew Matthews
“Tired, tired with nothing, tired with everything, tired with the world’s weight he had never chosen to bear.”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned